Figuring it out von Puraido (Izuku x Katsuki) ================================================================================ Kapitel 3: ----------- Katsuki got drunk the other night to stop his thoughts from running wild, but it had a nasty side effect. In the middle of the night, he stumbled to his friend’s house. He didn’t know what he hoped to get there, but he wanted to see Izuku. It was after midnight, so barely an appropriate time for a visit. Yet, he knocked at the door and rang the doorbell over and over again. The door got ripped open. “What?” Izuku was grumpy at first, being woken up by the flood of ringing and banging, but his mood shifted when he saw Katsuki in such a state. “What’s up, Kacchan?” The blond fell into Izuku’s arms. “Missed you!” Katsuki drawled. “Oh? I missed you too, Kacchan?” Not that Katsuki would notice, but Izuku sounded very much confused. They had just seen each other two days before. Izuku dragged him inside, and Katsuki clung to him as if his life depended on it. “What do you want here? It’s the middle of the night.” “Izu … Want you to … fuck me!” He giggled and leaned his head against Izuku. “What?!” Izuku’s voice shot up two octaves. “Kacchan, what’s wrong with you? Aside from being drunk?” “I want you to fuck my ass! Ever since we slept next to each other at your mom’s place,” he slurred; it was barely understandable. “Shove your big cock into my pretty virgin ass. Come on!” Izuku was irritated and utterly confused. “Uhm, Kacchan, I’m not doing that right now. You are way too drunk. I think you should sleep until you’re sober again.” He dragged Katsuki to his guest bedroom. “But only if you sleep with me! Hold me! I want to feel your dick against my ass!” Katsuki begged. Still confused, Izuku shook his head. “We will see about that. Come now.” He pulled Katsuki with him; he had to carry him most of the way. He placed Katsuki on the bed and helped him out of his jacket, shoes, and pants. “Are you gonna fuck me? I want it so badly! I’m almost thirty and still a virgin, can you believe that?” Katsuki crawled back onto the bed. “A-And I want you to be my first.” “Not now, Kacchan, you are way too drunk! We will talk about it when you are sober, yes?” Izuku turned Katsuki around so he could place the blanket over him. Katsuki just pouted. It looked adorably like his younger self. The blond grabbed Izuku’s arm when he was about to retreat. “Stay!” He begged. Sighing, Izuku nodded and moved behind Katsuki. Excited, he pressed his ass against Izuku’s crotch. The greenette just sighed and pulled Katsuki into a hug. It was very awkward for him, though. The following morning came abruptly when Katsuki shot out of bed and stumbled to the bathroom, puking his guts out. “Are you okay, Kacchan?” Izuku asked after the ordeal was over. He helped his friend up, who still tumbled heavily. “Think so …” Heat crept over Katsuki’s face when he remembered snippets of last night. He cleansed his mouth before they went back to the bedroom. “So, about last night,” Izuku started immediately. “Why do you want me to fuck you?” Katsuki buried his face into his hand. “I’m so sorry for that,” he apologized. He exhaled deeply. “I shouldn’t have gotten this drunk.” “It’s okay; I’m just confused. You never really seemed to have interest in sex.” “Yeah, this was true, but …” he exhaled. “Look, ever since you came out as gay, I’m …” He lost his words. He wasn’t sure what he wanted to say. Last night it came so easy over his lips. He was deeply embarrassed over his behavior now. How could he have lost control this much? “Kacchan!” Izuku snapped his fingers in front of Katsuki’s face to get him back to the present. He had been heavily spaced out. “Oh, uh, yeah, I’ve been questioning myself for years after you came out as gay. I don’t like women, that much I know. I got half of a panic attack when I saw one naked.” “What?” Izuku curled his eyebrows. “Yeah, I went with one of my fans home one time. I was irritated by y’all commenting on your sex life and me not having it. But when I saw her naked, I freaked out and ran away.” He still cringed at that memory. “Oh, I’m sorry to hear that, Kacchan.” “Then when you said you like guys, I started questioning myself, and I looked up guys on the internet. And well, yeah, they are more attractive to me than women. But … but, the thought of …” Gosh, this sounded so weird, he stopped himself from continuing. Izuku would laugh at him, would he? He couldn’t possibly tell him, no? “Stay with me, Kacchan,” Izuku brought him back. “Every time I think of putting my dick into someone’s orifices, I completely freak out. I don’t know why this is … What’s wrong with me? But then, on Inko’s birthday, you slept so close to me, and you got a boner that night, and it poked my ass, and I got turned on so much!” He rambled on. “I never had this before, and now I can’t stop thinking about it! I-I want you to fuck me; that’s all I can think off when I get home into my stupid empty house!” He was out of breath when he ended his rant and panted heavily. “Why did you not sleep with me? A-Am I not good enough?” “What? No! But you were completely drunk! I don’t do drunk sex!” Izuku told him. “Besides, I’m still a bit overwhelmed, okay? Give me five minutes to process everything.” “Oh, yeah …” Nervously, Katsuki fidgeted with his fingers while Izuku thought about everything he had just said. Katsuki felt so dumb, and he couldn’t believe that he had done this last night. What if Izuku didn’t want him the way he wanted him? The thought of losing his best friend like that was unbearable. And the longer Izuku thought about everything, the more restless Katsuki became. “So, to get this right, you want me to have sex with you?” Izuku questioned again. “Yes! These past three months, there wasn’t one single night where I didn’t dream of this,” Katsuki told him, still bright red in the face. “Look, I know this comes out of the blue. I’m sorry to dump this onto you …” “But why me, Kacchan?” “I don’t know! But you are all I can think of. Sometimes I wish you were there when I come home at night … Coming to my empty house is terrible … I never had this before …” Izuku listened to him; he tried to understand what was happening with Katsuki. He had never seen him like that. “It’s confusing me so much. I thought I was okay with never having any kind of romantic or sexual relationship. It all seemed pointless at the time. All I wanted was to be a hero. But …,” he helplessly shrugged, “now that I am a hero for so many years, I began to realize just how empty my life is.” He looked down at his hands. “All I ever do is get up, work, get home, eat, sleep, repeat. And, yeah, I love being a hero, but it feels so shallow.” The other listened to his friend, and he could hear the desperation in his voice. “And I don’t know what do to with my thoughts of you,” Katsuki continued. “It is driving me crazy, and the day before, I had this dreadful thought. I imagined you with any other guy, and it had me boiling. What am I gonna do when you find a boyfriend, I thought. I have to take my chance while I can …” Izuku perked up. “Are you jealous of imaginary people?” He questioned. “Yes, I know it’s stupid! You don’t owe me anything, yet the thought of losing you to someone else …” Katsuki exhaled to stop his rambling. He knew that it didn’t make any sense. He was never in any kind of romantic relationship with Izuku, so he had no right to be this jealous. The greenette exhaled. “Okay, this is all very overwhelming, Kacchan. Look, I’m not gonna sleep with you.” Katsuki swallowed heavily. “Fair enough … Uh, thanks for not doing it last night …” He didn’t want to admit it, but he still felt hurt. “Look, Kacchan, I don’t know where this is coming from, but it all goes way too fast for me. I don’t want to ruin our relationship by mindlessly sleeping with you. What if it doesn’t work out? Things like this can get very awkward really quickly.” He explained to him. Katsuki numbly nodded. He felt this pang in his heart for being rejected. “I mean, I don’t even know what you feel for me. You understand that, right? I don’t know if you just want sex or … if you want a relationship. You sound like you want to be in a relationship with me?” He furrowed his brows and looked at his friend. “I don’t know, Izuku. I have no idea what I want. I only know that I don’t want to be alone in my apartment anymore … It drives me crazy.” He lifted his head and stared into the emerald eyes. Izuku pursed his lips. “I mean … we could move in together … as roommates? And, I don’t know, try to figure stuff out from there?” Izuku proposed. “Really? You would do that? But why?” Katsuki asked, confused. “Because I feel lonely too, Kacchan. So far, all the guys I have met were either out for a short one; or they wanted to boast that they got one of the top heroes in their bed. Both things I don’t like. I want a relationship with someone who isn’t out to get something from my fame.” “What assholes!” Katsuki snarled. “I’d never do shit like that.” “I mean, you are kind of a hero yourself,” Izuku chuckled. “Still! I’d never do that!” Katsuki looked him straight in the eyes. “Let’s move in together, okay?” “Sure,” Izuku smiled back at him. “But as I said, I’m not going to sleep with you, at least not just like that.” He reiterated. “Yeah, that’s fine.” There was hope! Katsuki couldn’t believe that this had just happened. He would have a chance! Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)