Not as planned 2 - Katsuki, Izuku and Eijiro von Puraido (A/B/O Verse) ================================================================================ Kapitel 7: Izuku – Feral Frenzy ------------------------------- The following two weeks were absolutely draining for Izuku. His son was more than once at death’s door. It was like a curse. Izuku hoped he would make it, on the one hand; otherwise, his wife died for nothing. But, on the other hand, he just wished it to be over. The uncertainty was hell. Thus he didn’t even dare to form a bond with his son, who still hadn’t received a name. What if he died too? Inko was worried for her son, but also her grandson. She couldn’t stand the thought of another death. She had to take care of Kieran and Leony since Izuku was mainly at the hospital. It was just heartbreaking. The broken bond hit him like a truck too. The pain washed through his body whenever it got reminded that Lucia was dead. Shit, he felt terrible. The pain was sometimes a monotonous tapping, only in his neck, but it could also get so much worse within minutes. It could make his whole body ache. He was given a room at the hospital to be near his son in case of an emergency. To look at the infant was painful. It was a constant reminder of the loss of his wife. Izuku could only stare at him blankly. There was nothing, no connection to the little pup in front of him. No awe like he had felt with Leony. This pup could be some stranger’s pup for all he cared. It was eventually decided that Lucia and her daughter would be cremated. Izuku wanted to take the ashes back to Japan, to bury her there. He contemplated if he should bury her on the farm, but he wouldn’t be able to visit her this way. The paperwork was thankfully taken care of by the Ridgways. He just couldn’t concentrate on this at the moment. Ian was with him from time to time to calm him down. He knew as well how hard a broken bond was. He also helped him with his thoughts about the dead pup. Izuku questioned if he had done the right thing. “There was nothing you could have done …” He reassured him. “But your son will survive. You just have to believe in it.” Izuku shrugged. “I’m not sure if I can. He’s weak …” The older prime alpha knew that Izuku had let go of his emotions. That he was in this vast, dark sea that they used to describe the state of the living dead. It was an unhealthy coping mechanism they used to deal with all the violence and murder they faced. It was heartbreaking to see Izuku like that. Even after their experience as prisoners of war, he had refused to let go of his emotions. Ian had always admired Izuku for being so strong, for refusing to sink. But everyone had their breaking point, he assumed. Not that he would judge him. He had shut down his own emotions long ago. This state didn’t mean that he could never feel emotions of happiness and joy. They were all perfectly capable of doing so if they desired. It was more focused on all the negative emotions. It was an “I don’t give a fuck” attitude. It was unhealthy and not a good way of dealing with all of this. If Izuku got angry or irritated enough, he could tend to lash out instead of trying to calm down. That’s what they usually did. Emotional instability was, unfortunately, a side effect of this state. The little boy eventually pulled through. He finally gained weight and started to eat properly. The doctors were relieved about that, and he could leave the incubator now. They gave him to Izuku. Nothing … there was absolutely nothing. When he held him for the first time, he didn’t feel anything, no relief whatsoever. He was now here, holding this pup in his hands, that was his own, yet he didn’t feel anything. Nevertheless, he thanked the doctors for their excellent work. That was polite, wasn’t it? He needed to play-pretend. He couldn’t let them know that he had absolutely no idea what to do with the pup in his arms. The boy was sleeping. Izuku went back to the room he was staying in. Tomorrow he would be able to leave. His son was released from the hospital. He still didn’t have a name, and the nurse suggested that he get one before leaving the hospital; otherwise, the paperwork would be even more. The prime alpha told her he would think about one. His mother, Kieran, Leony, Ian, and Kairi were in his room. He still felt numb when he handed the boy to Inko. The alpha sat down on the bed. “He needs a name …” He mumbled. “Did you not think of one while you were here?” Inko asked. She was so concerned. Of course, she was relieved that her grandson survived and would be able to come home with them soon, but she was so worried for Izuku. “No … Just give him one. I don’t care …” he looked down to the ground. Kieran was next to him, cuddling closer. Leony walked over too. She mewled when she sensed the distress in her father. He lifted her up and cradled her. “Can we name him Lucian?” Kieran asked. “As a tribute to mother …” “Sure,” Izuku had this pang in his heart, “then his name is Lucian from now on.” Kieran smiled at him. He hugged him one last time before he went over to Inko to hold his little brother in his arms. It was the start of February when Izuku returned to the farm. The kids would stay with Inko at her home. He wanted to be alone for some time. He needed to say goodbye to the life he had here for years. Ian drove him up to the farm, but he stayed in the car. He knew that Izuku needed his space. The prime alpha looked into the barn; he walked towards the sheep who huddled close together. Biting down on his lip, he sat in the midst of them. They came closer to him, probably sensing that something wasn’t right. “Shit … just why?” he questioned. He wanted to cry but couldn’t. He felt unable to; this frustrated him so much. The sheep bleated at him, from time to time, as if they tried to answer his question. But, of course, he didn’t understand them. After half an hour in the barn, he left to return to his house. He remembered all the work he put in it to repair and enlarge it. His heart stung so much when he thought of Lucia dancing around in the kitchen. How happy she had been. She would always lighten his mood. But now she was gone, and she had taken the happiness with her. It felt like everything was gray in the cottage. So blank, there was no life in it anymore, even though he clearly saw the colorful walls. He walked over to Leony’s room. He was proud of himself for getting it so perfect. It was the first time he built a room by himself. But now, they would leave it behind. It made him sad. He felt sorry for her. Losing her mother at such a young age ... Lucia … He was drawn to their bedroom. There was still the nest she had made before she got hospitalized. But of course, her scent was long gone by now; it had been weeks after all. Nevertheless, Izuku walked over, and he lay down in the last remnants she had left him. He hugged one of the pillows close, and he let himself drown even more. Everything was so bland. Even more water filled his lungs, but he just let it. He hoped he would arrive at the ground of this endless black sea to find her again. A pulsing rushed through his body. The broken bond hurt more than ever before. He growled because of the pain and started to scratch at his fading mark. All the good times with Lucia came back. How they were sitting at the clearing, how the sunlight reflected on her white hair, how it illuminated her scarred skin. The warm smile she gave him. Sometimes they got up on their horses, and they rode over the meadows to the forest, wind in their hair, their laughter echoing through the air. It was perfect. They had only time for such activities while Kieran was at school and before Leony was born. He could feel her hot mouth on his body. How her lips explored every inch of it, how she made him feel good. How he could give up all control he had. Yes, he never needed to be afraid with her. Fucking her and getting fucked by her was always a very intense sensation. She showed him so much love throughout their relationship. It made his heart swell. The scratching got stronger when the pain intensified. He groaned when his sharpened nails drew blood. He wanted it to stop! He didn’t want to get a bond scrubbing, no. This would remove Lucia forever from his system. He wanted to keep her, but the pain would drive him crazy. But what else could he do? He had to endure it! Shit, he missed her so much. He got pulled up in the dark water a bit as he tried to struggle back to the surface. The pain was so much that it gave him pushes upwards. He knew that he shouldn’t let himself sink so deep. But what would wait on the surface for him? Only pain. There would be only pain. His brain would be forced to come to terms with her death. With his daughter’s death. With the fact that only his son survived. A son he never wanted. His fingers were bloody in no time as he went ham on his neck. He couldn’t stop it, the itching got only worse, and he wanted it gone. Shit, he hated it so much! His teeth were sharpened as well, his eyes glowing. He moved restlessly in the nest, soiling it with all his blood. “Oi, stop it!” He snapped at the voice that was coming from the door. Ian was there, walking closer but still keeping his distance. Izuku turned feral, and it was quite dangerous. Izuku snarled and sat up. He saw the other prime alpha. He was near his mate’s nest! He growled to keep him at bay, ignoring the pounding in the scratched open neck. Ian lifted his hands to show he wasn’t a threat. “You’re going to bleed out if you continue like that. The bond is not going away, even if you scratch the part of the neck out,” he explained, but it hit deaf ears. Izuku was still too far gone. “Get away from my mate’s nest!” He growled; his voice was deep and beastly. It barely resembled a human. Now his prime alpha was talking. And this triggered Ian’s prime. He responded with another growl. “I won’t come in, but you need to stop the scratching. Here, let me heal you!” The beast distorted his voice, yet he was still in control of himself. The younger prime bared his teeth; he was rocking back and forth in his crouched state. One hand was still scratching the itch. The hot, red liquid ran down his chest and over his back, soaking his clothes. Ian lifted his right arm to bite down on his wrist with careful movements. He drew blood and showed it to Izuku. “Come here, have a sip, and you will be okay.” He hoped to break the feral state. But seemingly, Izuku got even more aggravated by the smell of blood. The younger prime snarled and growled. He didn’t recognize Ian in his aggravated state. All he knew was that an intruder was threatening to destroy his mate’s nest. Izuku jumped and tackled Ian. “Get out!” Blackwhip shot out and tried to pierce the enemy. The metallic smell of blood was still in his nose, and it drove him crazy. “Woah, careful!” Ian backed away and dodged the tendrils. He made his way out of the house, trying to spare the cottage of any more damage. “Follow me, Izuku!” he called out. It luckily worked, and the feral prime followed him outside. He was dead-set on hunting the intruder down. Outside of his home, he unleashed more of blackwhip. He hit Ian in the back with it. With an oomph, the other prime alpha went down to the ground. He got flung around the courtyard. “Stop it, Izuku!” Ian growled. He tried to suppress his anger about the situation. He didn’t want to aggravate the feral prime even more. But he needed to calm him down somehow. He got wrapped up in blackwhip even tighter and was smashed to the ground. Some of his bones broke, but he managed to heal them instantly. Izuku was on top of him all of a sudden. He punched Ian in the face. “How dare you come into my den?” Hate filling Izuku’s voice as the feral mind took over. His eyes glowed yellow, and his teeth were the longest they had ever been. “Stop it, fucking idiot!” Ian snarled. He pulled his legs closer to his body, and then he kicked Izuku in the stomach. He got out of the black tendrils, he jumped back to his feet, ready to defend himself. Izuku wanted a beating, so it seemed. The two prime alphas clashed again. Ian tackled Izuku to the ground; they were covered in snow in no time, not that it mattered to either one of them. The formerly white powder was covered in blood as they rolled around, as Izuku tried to get the dominant position again. He didn’t want the other prime to beat him! His feral frenzy dragged on. He just couldn’t get out of it, no matter how hard Ian tried to snap him back. He was lost in the feral state. The grief was too overwhelming for him. But eventually, Izuku got back into the top position. He pinned the other prime down, fixating him with blackwhip. Ian was panting heavily. His body was scratched from the sharp claws; he hadn’t healed himself, too focused on the feral prime to do so. He now stared into the yellow eyes of the person on top of him. He could see the shift before even Izuku realized it. The greenette stared down, ready to strike. He even lifted one hand to do … yeah, what was he about to do? He needed to eliminate the intruder! Images flashed in front of his eyes. He flinched heavily when he heard a cackle from somewhere behind him. He remembered something. The room that was so hot he believed he burned alive. The static, coming off of this man. The rage he felt, the lust that his rut triggered, the longing to go deeper into … He groaned when he saw the stiff naked body under him. The stench of blood hit his nose, as well as his own arousal. The smell of amber, saffron, and leather was heavy in the air, the pungent reek of sex pheromones between them driving him crazy, making him do these nasty things. Nasty, vile, dirty. The sickening sounds of their sweaty skin slapping together. Blackwhip swirling around the other’s body, tightening with every movement. Izuku flinched back, drenched in sweat. He was breathing heavily. He knew the position they were in … He jumped back a few meters and landed on his ass. His legs were unable to hold him. His breathing was ragged and fast as he stared at Ian, who was now sitting up. Izuku remembered his clenched jaw … Bile rose in his stomach, and he leaned over to vomit when the acts of rape shot back into his brain. No … he couldn’t! Coughing, he tried to get up and get away. He didn’t know where to go, just away! He was still in a feral mind but clear enough to remember what went down. “S-Sorry,” he stammered. He didn’t know for what exactly he apologized. Ian smelled the distress in his friend, he couldn’t read minds, but he assumed he thought back to their days in the prison camp. If he was honest, their position had triggered something in him too. But unlike Izuku, he never suppressed his memories with Veronica’s help, and he had plenty of time to come to terms with what happened. “Izuku! Come here …” he tried to lure him in. He let out a soothing rumble to comfort the upset prime alpha. “No! Stay away from me! I’m a monster!” He managed to mutter. The older prime shook his head. “No, you are not. Of course, you are distressed, but that’s only natural, given everything that happened. Let me help you!” Ian was concerned because Izuku was still losing blood. The feral prime was as pale as the snow surrounding them. Shaking, Izuku tried to get away again. “No, I hurt you … I-I did those things to you,” he stammered. “I told you, it’s okay. Stop it! We already cleared that up, do you remember?” Carefully, Ian approached him and eventually caught up to Izuku. He knelt next to him, putting a hand on the younger one’s shoulder. “You need to drink my blood. You lost too much.” He opened his wrist again with his teeth and held it out for Izuku. Still distraught the other prime grabbed the hand. “I’m sorry,” he mumbled while biting down on it. A metallic taste hit his tongue while he sucked on it. His eyes closed, and he drank. He could feel how his skin healed eventually, and strength came back, also a sense of clarity. His feral mind slowly found peace again. Ian rubbed through the green locks of hair to straighten them. He continued to rumble to soothe Izuku. Eventually, he was done and broke free. “Sorry, I’m so sorry, I … it hurts so much, I don’t know what to do,” Izuku stammered. “Shsh, it’s okay. Come here,” Ian pulled him into a hug. Izuku let him do it; he buried his head on Ian’s neck. “Don’t say it’s okay. It’s not …” Izuku mumbled; he looked up. “Nothing I did is okay. I’m a terrible person. I was about to kill you.” “As if you could … But seriously, Izuku, you’re hurting! You just lost someone significant, and you’re grieving. I don’t blame you.” Ian told him. He tried to be sensitive with his words. “You should. Even though I lost someone that doesn’t give me the right to hurt other people, I hate that everyone tries to excuse my behavior! Just because you guys can’t actually die doesn’t make it okay! What if that was someone who could not heal? What if I actually killed someone?” Ian looked at Izuku. “You’re right. But what do you want me to do? Be mad at you when I ain’t?” They were still sitting in the snow, surrounded by the weak courtyard lights. Snow was falling on them, but they didn’t feel the cold. “I don’t fucking know; just don’t tell me everything is okay all the time.” He exhaled, rubbing through his hair. “All right, I won’t,” Ian said, “Are you clear again?” “I think so … Shit … This felt so weird. I lost control completely, didn’t I?” Izuku leaned back into the snow. “Yeah, you were pretty out of it. But this tends to happen when you lose your bond. It’s shitty, and I know you don’t want to get a scrubbing, but if you don’t, you will suffer. Maybe even hallucinate of her.” Ian warned him. “But I don’t want to lose her completely. If I get a scrubbing, then she will be gone forever!” Panic was in Izuku’s voice. No, losing her was not an option. He sat up again to look at Ian. “I’m sorry, I know it’s hard, but otherwise, you will suffer even more! Those flashes of feral behavior could become more prominent the longer you keep it!” Izuku clenched his teeth, he knew that Ian was right, but he still didn’t want to admit it. “There has to be a way!” Desperation was in his voice. But then he stopped. Ian raised his eyebrows when he saw the look on Izuku’s face. As if he had just solved all the problems in the world. “What’s wrong?” “Lucia was still bonded when we mated. She endured a broken bond for so long …” “Yeah, because her mind was numbed out because of the trauma,” Ian reminded him. “But eventually, it became too much. She was still mated to her husband when we mated. I overwrote it with my mark! She told me she still felt the connection to her husband next to mine. But the pain was gone because I filled it up! Multiple bonds are possible!” “Yeah, it clearly is. I got two bonds, if you remember.” Ian raised his eyebrows. What was Izuku getting at? “I know …” Izuku looked him deep into his eyes. “I want you to mate me, not a complete bond if you don’t like that, but just so that the pain goes away!” “Are you out of your mind?” Ian hissed. He got up and moved a few steps back. “Izuku! You’re delusional if you think I’ll mate with you!” Now Izuku jumped up as well. “Please, help me out! It’s the last thing I will ask of you! You don’t need to pump me full of pheromones, just enough to mark me and trick my body into thinking everything’s fine. Look, I don’t even need to mate you back. It’s just so I can keep her a while longer!” He sounded desperate again and totally crazy too. “No! Absolutely not! That’s your grieving mind speaking, Izuku! You can’t seriously want me to mate you! You had this before with Savage, remember? You know that a forced bond will hurt like hell too!” “Then let’s do it right! Please, Ian, I just need more time! I don’t want to keep it forever, but I don’t want to let go of her immediately. If you could give me just a few more months, then that would be enough!” Izuku stumbled forward and grabbed Ian by the jacket. “That’s crazy, Izuku; you’re not making it better that way. Besides, what am I supposed to tell everyone else?” He furrowed his brows. “Tell them as it is! I don’t have feelings for you or anything, so our bond will probably not be that special! I just need your pheromones to cover up the loss of Lucia’s, at least for a while. So please do me that favor! It’s just until I can think clearly again! Just give me that time!” His green eyes were sad; it hurt to look into them. “Izuku, we’re both prime alphas! This could backfire for you. If we only mate one way, then you will be the only one suffering!” “I’m suffering already! It can’t possibly get worse! Yeah, I’ve never mated with a prime alpha, obviously, but I can take it.” He shook Ian a few times to get his point across. “Please!” Ian was highly concerned. Izuku was in no condition to make calculated decisions. It was possible to temporary mate someone, at least when the person who did the mating was skilled enough. But in order to do that, they both had to be in rut. Mating only worked when both partners were in heat or rut, so the body was more open to the new pheromones. What Savage did to Izuku ten years ago was forced mating, when one partner pushed the pheromones into the other without heat or rut. Most of the time, the body started to reject the mating after some time. The older prime closed his eyes to think about it. He felt the distress of Izuku with every fiber of his body. He was in pain, and he’d love to help him. But he really shouldn’t. This was something that could really backfire, especially since they were both prime alphas. Prime alphas, as well as prime omegas, could form incredibly deep bonds. It was more likely to happen to a prime alpha and prime omega pair, but it could happen to two prime alphas as well. This had happened between him and Veronica. A bond, so deep that it still lingered in the woman even after its breaking. If something went wrong, this could affect Izuku for the rest of his life. “Please …” he heard the greenette whisper. “Fucking hell. Okay, fine. I’ll give you six months! Then my pheromones will dissipate, and you’re back where you’re at now unless you keep continuing to temporary mate.” Ian looked at him with a serious expression. He got pulled into a hug. “Thank you! I owe you big time!” Izuku placed his head on Ian’s shoulder. “Yeah, just let us get over it … I’m not thrilled to do that,” he growled. “Alright, uhm, I have Lucia’s rut meds in the house.” He grabbed Ian by the wrist and pulled him back in. The older prime asked himself what he had gotten himself into. Shit. It took a while for them to enter their ruts. Ian stayed clothed while Izuku was naked, except his boxer shorts. His clothes were full of blood anyway. Besides, they didn’t intend to fuck it out; they just wanted to get the mating done. Ian texted Jay and Hua about this, so they knew what was happening. It wouldn’t affect him personally, but it was still important to tell them. They were back in the now stripped bed, Izuku didn’t want Ian in Lucia’s nest, and since it was ruined anyway, he had to remove it. He was kinda nervous. While they waited, Izuku talked. He needed to occupy his mind. “I wonder if I get a good home when I go back to Japan. I have no idea about the housing market at the moment. I find it difficult to choose from across the world,” he muttered. “I wonder if Kacchan could hook me up with someone who knows a place that’s big enough for the kids and me.” “I’m sure he will,” Ian grimaced a bit by the thought of Katsuki. He had been mad at him for some time after he called to ask for his blood a couple of years back. Ian hated being treated as a blood donor for every little injury. Well, a lost leg was not a minor injury, but it wasn’t as if he could do anything about it, aside from cutting off his own leg and giving it to him. “What about the other guy?” “Eijiro? Huh … I don’t know. Did you know that he’s still in love with me? I wonder why. I have honestly no idea how to face him.” The older prime raised his eyebrows when he heard that. “What? He’s in love with you? You’ve been gone for ten fucking years.” “Yeah, I know, it’s so strange!” Dizziness took over in Izuku’s brain. “He even broke things off with Mae because he wants to be with me.” A gasp escaped Ian’s lips. He furrowed his brows and looked at Izuku. “Really? It sounds almost like he started to imprint on you.” “What? Imprinting? But how? We just had sex two times! One time on the clearing and the other time after Kacchan’s wedding. Would that really be enough for imprinting? We weren’t even mated.” Now Izuku was confused. “Yeah, imprinting can happen after various things! You were both very young when you rut shared. Besides, you’re a prime alpha! Izuku, you tend to forget that! Prime alphas or omegas have higher chances to cause imprints on normal alphas and omegas!” Dumbfounded, Izuku stared at him. “So he’s living for ten years with a possible imprint on me?” He gazed on the mattress. He thought about his last sexual encounter with Eijiro. “When we had sex after Kacchan’s wedding, he wanted raw sex and to get bloated by me …” Ian grimaced. “Yikes, you definitely need to get this checked out. If he’s really imprinted on you, he will go crazy if you don’t give him attention. I mean, you saw what happened with Veronica. Well, okay, Eijiro is not a prime, so the bond might not be so strong, but breaking it will be a bitch.” “Shit, why do I have to ruin my friends like that … first, I cause trouble for Kacchan during school because of our dynamics, and then I manage to get Eijiro imprinted on me?” “Hey, that’s not your fault! Neither you nor Katsuki knew about prime alpha and prime omega attractions, and you also didn’t know about the imprinting shit. So, heads up!” He sighed. “Anyway, I think you’re enough in rut by now.” Izuku was still sad, but Ian was also correct. He didn’t know it better back then. He lay back on the mattress. “Then let’s go, please, claim me.” Heavily sighing, Ian got up and on top of Izuku. His fangs sharpened and got longer as well. He grabbed Izuku’s head and turned it to the side to free the neck. Then, he snapped forward and dug his teeth into Izuku’s neck. The younger prime gasped when Ian pumped him full of pheromones. His arms grabbed onto Ian’s broad statue. He groaned when the teeth bit deeper. Ian had to concentrate to not put too much of the pheromones into the other. Izuku felt like he was floating again. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the feeling of being claimed. The new pheromones washed through his body, extinguishing the fires that Lucia’s death had caused. He sighed in relief and pressed his body subconsciously against Ian’s. Eventually, the pressure of the teeth stopped as the older pulled away. Ian retracted his fangs and sat back at the end of the bed. “How are you feeling?” “Better, definitely better,” Izuku mumbled. He rubbed over the spot; his fingers got wet from the blood. He sat up too, still a bit dizzy from the rut. He stared at the mattress. “It’s over … she’s really dead …” “Yes, I’m sorry,” Ian mumbled. “You should try to sleep to recover. I’ll stay with you.” Freshly mated people needed to stay together for some time so the mark could really settle into their bodies. That was another reason why forced mating was so painful. “All right …” Izuku lay back down, and Ian threw a blanket over him. He still had doubts if this had been the right decision, but now it was too late. It would only be temporary. They came back to Inko’s house the next day. The omega was highly confused when she saw that Izuku was mated again. “W-What’s going on?” She had never really heard of temporary mating. “Oh, this is just for the time being. I didn’t want to lose Lucia’s mark but couldn’t stay mated to her. So that’s why he temporarily mated me,” Izuku explained. “It’s just for about six months.” “Ah, I think I understand,” Inko still looked a bit irritated. Kairi scoffed a little when she saw it, but she got it at least. “Izuku, Lucia’s, and the baby’s cremation will be tomorrow.” She told him. “Ah, I see. Then I should get everything ready to leave the country … again.” He sighed. “Yeah, probably.” She nodded. It indeed felt strange. Izuku was still numb; under the dark surface. He hadn’t reemerged at all, but he was a bit closer again, not as deep in as before. He had to function for his kids, after all. He would need to contact Kacchan to get maybe a temporary place to stay. So much to organize even though he just wanted to do nothing … But perhaps distraction was good. Yes, it surely was good! But, he had to get to work now! Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)